Recently I decided to panic over a couple of non-important things.

Thing 1 - My boyfriend (of 23) has financial issues:
Why did I panic over this you ask? Well, it has been drilled into my very impressionable head since I was small that money mattered a lot AND it was told to me, when I grew a little older, to never date anyone I couldn't see myself with in five years or more. Needless to say, I've had some small crises about being with someone who doesn't want to go to college: I saw them as never having a future. Although, in hindsight, I see now that things can change so drastically so quickly, I probably made some poor judgments based on those two, very insignificant things for someone my age or younger. We have our whole lives ahead of us! Why am I bothered by the bump that lies in his path which he must find a way over? Here I am almost in tears planned a grim financial future, when there's nothing to plan yet, we've only been together for a few months.
I have this horrible judgmental side. I try to think that I don't, but really, there's no hiding it. In my brain's eye, if you don't have stable finances and you're my age or older, then I don't see you on my level. It's really unfair because I know that I have only gotten to where I am because someone held steps under my feet until I reached this point. I am just now able to live on my own and support myself. (I'm 22.)
So, I have decided to let this go. There is more to our relationship (and future) than money.

Thing 2 - Moving into my own house:
As of right now I rent a room from a nice Hindu lady (whom I got hired on at my work). It's a large house with a big yard and it's very close to my work but off the beaten path so that there isn't traffic or anything bothersome. There are a few annoying things about living here, like I can't open my windows due to no screens and the lady I rent from is very ... needy? She likes to butt into my privacy without permission and she does things for me which are unnecessary and sometimes nerve-racking. She has nothing but good intentions, she just gets in my space. Other than that, things here are wonderful.
Recently I have become too complacent with my life. I needed a change before I would go crazy. I started back to school and though that was a change, it appears to be a negative one so far. I am not doing well. I blame it on everything under the son, however, one of the things I blame it on is that I do not have enough space in my room for a desk. I keep telling myself that if I had a desk, I would focus more; I could train myself to focus better if I was in a school-type setting. I happen to have a friend whose father-in-law rents a few houses. I asked him if he had any available, and there is one, not far from my work, much closer to my boyfriend's house. I was so excited! He said it wouldn't be too expensive and so I called his father-in-law to see about the house. Turns out, it is expensive. I can't afford it. Here I am, staring at my budget, trying to make this unnecessary move possible. I was cooking dinner when I realized that I didn't need to move. Look at where I am now: I am comfortable, it's not too expensive, it's a great location in proximity to the mall and work and a little of a drive to my boyfriend's, but worth it over all.
I have decided to let moving out go as well.

In OTHER news:

As I have stated above, school is not going well. I have dropped one course and I am failing another. I am submitting paperwork to have an Incomplete grade (which I have never needing in all my years of being a student.) and I am feeling a bit defeated about it. I know damn well it's my own fault that I'm barely floating in this boat. I had no drive, motivation, or focus. I need to get my act together. I am afraid that over the summer break, I will lose what little drive I have left and have to start all over trying to get back into this school mindset. I'm going to read this book that I purchased for my class from front to back this summer. (And some other books too.) Hopefully I can get my brain back into studying.

I am getting more fish! I have decided that since I can't have domestic pets, I will have aquatic ones! I got a free fish tank from my aunt, and I will begin researching compatible fish types soon. :)

Work:
One member of my team lost his position as of today. It was no one's fault but his own, although it will make my life pretty awkward because it's B's cousin, and I still have to drive B to work. They are a little bitter about it.
I lost my lead to first shift, tonight I begin training her replacement. I am very confident that the girl who is replacing her will fill the role well.
I have applied for the supervisor positions. The interviews should start the end of this week or next week, so I'm going to be nervous until then. If I don't get one, it'll be okay, but if I do, things will be changing for me in a good way, so I'm excited.
Home:
I spent some time yesterday with David's family. His older sister and I did our nails and then his mom and little sister were there. I feel so welcome around his family. They like me. I wish my step-dad wasn't being so weird about David.
Here's what we did to our nails:



School:
I should be getting back about $650 every two months as my refund. I picked out a desk and chair from Ikea:
http://www.ikea.com/us/en/catalog/products/80073182/ & http://www.ikea.com/us/en/catalog/products/40180042/
(I will get the white chair though.)
I start classes on April first, so I have one month left before I have to start focusing. :)